Well well despite not supporting Singapore team, i decided to watch the Singapore-Malaysia match on tv yesterday... Spore was really playing like shit, trying long balls which din even meet their targets.... and malaysia scored a goal due to the keeper lionel lewis screwing up...

and of course the home support was way too pathetic. Din inspire the team at all, that's why the team was so lethargic maybe? but eventually the singapore team was fortuitous as usual , scoring the equaliser and forcing their way to the penalty shootout where it was all luck, and spore's luck triumph again. Good result, bad game

Today was rather tiring, but had class outing in the afternoon at east coast part. quite fun, ms wong treated us to ice cream at gelare =P and the guys played soccer too

feeling damn shagged now... hope dun fall asleep tmr ><

today it's singapore vs malaysia...

foreign talent vs bumiputra
home ground vs our-land-anyway
malay+others vs malays

i admit that i have never really been a fan of Team Singapore, not becos they are always underachieving, but because they really do not appeal to me at all....

when chelsea win the league cup, i felt happier than when singapore win the tiger cup... ><

but anyway, good luck Singapore. At least give some of my friends some bragging rights =]



anyway i have been reading sam soh's blog and i feel quite strongly about what he feels too... just that maybe i dun feel it so strongly and i feel that infatuation dying down, perhaps cos i hardly ever see her anyway

infact i hope i dun sink into such childish infatuation again. it's not too just, maybe a bit sweet at the start, but as you chew into it, it soon disintegrates into a mire despair and depression...

but hey, i think i'm still thinking of her everyday..... sighz *self denial?*

why are there so many low lives who have nothing better to do other than stupid loser things??

hmm...

when school's picking up, better hope you are not left behind...

i think i'm a dreamer.

maybe it's because i'm too entrenched in the past, basking in former glories (almost non-existant) and wallowing in countless past failures...

maybe i fear for the present, with anxiety welled up in me, and an apprehension for an ambiguous form of uncertainty that just seems to tail me no matter where i travel...

maybe the future just seems too grim and bleak, almost like a play with me as the puppet, performed to the mockery and jeers of the audience...

that's why i need to daydream (or nightdream), for it represents a glimpse of hope for me, however unlikely it seems to be and offers some form of solace and comfort from agonizing truths- the harsh rationalness of reality.

in daydreams, i can picture myself with you, appreciating the loveliness of the stars, and the endless expanse of skies, a domain that truly belongs to our imagination and boundless love.

then i realize, slowly and painfully. everything is an illusion. if only the world wasn't so logical, there would be endless possibilities. if only daydreams were true, if only...

anyway i was just chatting with topbrains yak xinyang about popular science, and it suddenly dawned upon me the essence of knowledge.

firstly, no amount of knowledge is enough knowledge. Like if some dude come along and say that the universe is made up a z- dimentional space where z is some complex number, how can you show otherwise? or even more simply, if another person says that if you mix acetone with pear juice and get a super solvent, how do you tell if it's bullshit?
we can't get enough knowledge in our whole life. there's breadth problem- how can we know everything under the sun? there's depth problem- do we really know enough in what we think we know? and of course there's practical problems, like forgetting what you know and not knowing how to put into practice what you know... *okie, i'm starting to sound like bullshit myself*
and then i realise, KI is actually a very important topic. it's precisely because we will never know enough, and knowledge is like an endless expanse of ocean that we can never consume, so we must know how to deal with knowledge. How to discern knowledge that we need, knowledge that we trust, knowledge on different levels....

secondly, knowledge is everywhere, taking on a myriad of forms and permeating every corner of our lives. We are fortunate that we often take what we know for granted. And we are even more fortunate that we as humans, highly intelligent beings, can process knowledge in such an incredible way.
There's many facets of learning that only humans can do, far beyond the potential of most animals. Why fixed action patterns in animals, cos it makes life much simpler for their limited intelligence. Cos it is an apt replacement for their lack of knowledge, or lack of ability to process knowledge. When we wake up, brush our teeth, eat a meal, play some sports, we take all these for granted. It seems too brainless to implore the significance of such routine events, because we are too brainy.

Ultimately, learn from others, make yourself permeable to the wealth of knowledge that everyone around you possesses. knowledge does not just come from the textbooks, for that is just regurgitation. knowledge cannot be tested by exams, because knowledge emcompasses so much more.

sometimes jc really starts to get confusing for me...

for once, it's a new school. the proximity to ri helps, but ultimately it's a new ground, a new beginning. no point reminiscing about the past, no point relating to it, there's really no point.

and then there's girls. Female students suddenly invading our school lives, adding an entirely new dimension to life. Distracting, esp that special somebody.

schoolwork! okie i haven't done my tutorials yet, honsetly.

but really, sometimes i dunno what i am writing and why i am writing. there's no coherence in my words, no substance in my content, no passion in my prose. i'm just a stupid person who happens to think that i can blog... how stupid

i think there's an inherent difference between ri and rj, basically you just get to know so many new people and get involved to much more...

good it may be , cos it's of course not fun

but on the other hand, it's really hard trying to balance things out. Just a few days into the year, and i've had to put off... i can remember the OG kbox outing, the OG capball just last fri, zoulong's sendoff just ytd, astro etc etc etc

And there's more to come this week... i feel i must go for the OG outing on fri even though technically i shldn't cos i've got something on. it's hard being in rj, and it's even harder being a nice rj guy =(

heyy zoulong, good luck for your future endeavors!! =]

today zoulong sent me a msg telling me about his leaving singapore for the states.

for me i'm one to hate to say goodbye, for it's just a convenient phrase that cannot represent the true emotions at someone's point of departure. but it's convenient, and isn't that what we often prescribe to in this world of hectice pace and frentic happenings?

but anyway, goodbye and goodluck~
*and we have the same birthday xD*

i think i'm very much a dreamer.

maybe i cling onto the past too firmly, basking in former glories (almost nonexistent) or wallowing in countless past failures...

maybe i just fear for the present, uncertainty constantly welling up in me, and an apprehension for the signs of breakdown which always seem to tail me...

maybe its just the future that puts me off the most, for it seems bleak, grim, an unsavory scenario with me as the lead...

it's daydreaming (and perhaps nightdreaming) that keeps me proper, that shields me from the harsh rationalness of this world, that holds a ray of hope for me.

And in my daydreams, you are mine.... if only it were true. if only dreams were reality...

*glance up at the stars*

sian haven't been doing my tutorials and stuff... cos ithink i am too busy wif stuff here and there... bleargh and cca haven't even started yet!

And i was ALMOST tricked into thinkng the chem department is very slack. Like i tot they only teach a lot and no hw, but today everyone was asking me about chem tutorial and i was like "huh? there's chem tutorial?" .... wahh. And they purposely make it seem very little cos everything write outside... cunning chem department *(and my tutor say that ws the bare minumum)

Had no lectures which was good in a sense, cos the seats get pretty uncomfy after some time (though it's hell better than Ri lts, which are totally crap!)...

Oh yar my class quite enthu, with Alex as the CT rep. Today we all went for OG lunch (met audrye's class on the way) at J8 and guess what? We played hide and seek at J8 after that!! lmao!! hahahahah and eunice was the winner!! cos she was apparently hiding at Fair Price where i was searching and in the end she ran away from me when she saw me.... rofl

woot today was quite an interesting day...

first we decided to move our OG corner from the lodge to the canteen!! haha that's more convenient. and once AGAIN there was no assembly..... for no apparent reason. Makes me wonder if there will EVER be assembly.

My GP teacher sounds quite interesting and a fun person to talk to... in a sense she kinda reminds me of Jacq Sim (my SS teacher last time). Yeah and i think i gonna like GP! =D

After a lot of boring lectures, went back to RI to eat. The canteen was okie la, but expectation was just too high i guess. And din get kampung drumstick ><

had OG activity at around 3.30. Netball. played with some J2s. but we fared quite well. And since i'm not the sporty type of person, i think i played okie... very fun though! i think it's my first time playing netball! lol

later also played with Ali's OG, with these really imba RG netballers..... wow they are damn zai, almost playing it like an art.... oO

was really tired, and took 157 home. Met Zhengxiao, who's a pretty nice guy. And something quuite amazing happened. Cos along the way home, i saw this chio HCJC gal whom i know (dammit , forgot her name...) and we just happend to have eye contact at the same point of time thru the bus window. Wow, and that was really short, and we both smiled at each other... haha what a coincidence

And not long after, there was an almost identical incident where i saw my pri sch classmate Carolyn Tien (who's also from HCJC) But sadly we din manage to catch each other's attention...

Now i'm really tired.... gotta sleep soon sayonara~

i guess people have been changing...

pri sch mates... are they really the same?
sec 2 classmates... omg is that really them?
sec 4 classmates... just a few months, but such great differences...

it just seems everyone's evolving so fast, taking on a new identity, and being just so so different... whether in personality, or the personality he/she purposely exudes, whether in looks, or the looks he/she tries hard to portray, whether in thinking, or the perception that he/she has been brainwashed to adopt....

changes are inevitable, more so the changes in people. Like what people always say, the only constant thing in life is changes...

where do i stand in this crossroad of changes?

This is for you: quelle jolie fille
if only you are reading this...

heyy anyone from my OG here pls tag!!!

well considering a large chunk of this OG takes bio instead of physics... haha

oh well school's starting proper

and even before that i am finding myself busy-ed again.... bleargh life's like RI again, maybe just a bit more stressful.

Lectures have mostly been boring. and i think i've forgotten everything in sec sch!!! wahh ggxx!!

And did i mention this, that RJC ppl are VERY gossipy? well i guess ther's a lot to gossip too hahaha xD

And sam soh got this gal who looks soooooo like Joylim wth! And i went to see her that day, indeed she got this uncanny resemblance, though not completely la. omg

and chelsea's really in some deep shit these days.... oh man..

L'ooney Tunes... what a great OG!!
Zhiwen, James, Eekuan, Wai Sum, Liu Hao, Kevin, Weejin, Arvind, Weizhong, Ivan, Brian, Adeline, Jacqueline, Melissa, Elaine, Charlene, Gu Ying, Ying Bin, Zi Teng, Fahani

lalalalalalalalalalalala...
lalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

i think i am really falling in love with u, A....

lol blog seems to be dying...

Anyway RJ life has started proper and i am feeling quite stressed out.

Cos everyone is soooo soo hardworking while i am so slack. I haven't touched my math tutorial yet...

But one interesting thing, i am getting to know so much more rumors nowadays... lolx

Finally i'm blogging again!

Ytd was OG outing and it was real fun man! I went NTU in the morning and got pretty stsressed out first. After that we met up at Holland V for lunch (though i personally think holland drive is better)

After that we took a bus to a shopping center but the pool center was full... bleargh ><. I mean like the whole shopping center was like empty other than the pool center... suay sia

So we went Brian's house which was quite big and has 4 dogs (!!) So at first we were spending a lot of time discussing costumes.... which i personally thought was a bit sian. After we played lotsa games... some were really hilarious!!!

Like the polar bear game, we just kept on killing the Guru first... was damn funny hahaha. Weizhong was also very funny, like remembering Elaine as Selina LMAO!! In the final game, i got a forfeit and it was passing a piece of paper by lips lol

Finally we had dinner and chatted a lot again.... finally got home at around 11pm!! woot

And today is my birthday too!! Hope all my family and friends are happie alwayz~

lol blog dun dieeeee!!!

Wahh these few days were still OG activities.... make me very tired cos there's so much activities in the day and still got games/dinner at night. So I am getting home very late everyday, like 10pm, and feeling completely shagged...

Ytd had station games. Today had this external hike, for my OG was at chinatown. It was modelled after Shi Zhi Lu Kou... not abd program! =D And we ate all kinds of weird stuff, like green pea paste in raw cabbage? hahahahaha

And i've met my class too..... bleargh it doesn't look too promising at the moment. The only guy i know are Chengjie and Yuankang. Really hope it's aright.... bleargh. Although my Civics Teacher looks quite amiable and fun! haha maybe my first gd FT since Mr. Otto Fong? xD

And tmr's packed as well... still got lots of other non-sch stuff to settle.... tired.

lol blog dun dieeeee!!!

Wahh these few days were still OG activities.... make me very tired cos there's so much activities in the day and still got games/dinner at night. So I am getting home very late everyday, like 10pm, and feeling completely shagged...

Ytd had station games. Today had this external hike, for my OG was at chinatown. It was modelled after Shi Zhi Lu Kou... not abd program! =D And we ate all kinds of weird stuff, like green pea paste in raw cabbage? hahahahaha

And i've met my class too..... bleargh it doesn't look too promising at the moment. The only guy i know are Chengjie and Yuankang. Really hope it's aright.... bleargh. Although my Civics Teacher looks quite amiable and fun! haha maybe my first gd FT since Mr. Otto Fong? xD

And tmr's packed as well... still got lots of other non-sch stuff to settle.... tired.

Sigh i'm still awake!!! bleargh

i think it's becos it's not school time yet, so i stone a lot in the day, a mechanism for conserving energy and thus i am soooooooooooooooo energetic at nite haiz...

Back here!!

Today I had my first day in RJC! (actually technically it's yesterday.. but nvm). I dunno if I was too excited, but i only fell asleep at 1++ am..

Somehow, it's a totally different feeling from being in RI. Like the fork after the traffic lights while walking to school, the RI boy will walk left while the RJC gal/boy will turn right... simple things like this may be insignificant, but it's about an identity issue too... and somehow when i look at the RI buildings now, i just kind of feel it's not my school anmore ><

We had our OG stuff... my groupmates are quite nice. And arvind who was my pri sch classmate is in my OG too!!! wow what a coincidence! and somehow other than Kevin and Brian, I know all the guys in my OG beforehand already.... so it isn't much of an excitement either...

I do want to thank the OGLs cos i think they've really put in a lot of effort, esp being an ex-PSL myself. These OGLs really spent a lot of efforts on the deco, storyline, dance etc etc. THANK YOU! =D

And recently I have started visiting STOMP and posting comments there. Some singaporeans are really hard to argue with... bleargh nvm.

Cya! Hope orientation tmr is fun! xD

woot sch is starting tmr!!!

Today was quite a nice day. At first met up with gym hunks Alwyn and Hong Cheng and we took a train to Cityhall. Hongcheng and I had a haircut.. i think it's gd but nothing special. Hc's hair looks good =P

So after that we had subway again.... lol and after i bought my foot long sandwich, i went to look for the toilet and pass by all the shilin eateries, japanese eateries etc which all took so attractive... sigh but the sandwich is healthy lol xD

Watched the 4pm show on DeathNote 2. No spoilers but it was really a great movie, worth the hype. I mean I really liked the storyline and the themes behind the story... and of course the gals are soooooo cute. Hc like this misa gal (i agree is cute) but alwyn concurs with me that the newspresenter Nana Katase looks better hehe

If you haven't watched it go watch it! It's worth the money!!

RJ here i come!!!

Happie new year everyone!!!

Well today was a rather fun day.... afternoon we went to Istana. I know it's nothing exciting cos i've been there on countless occassions, but there is just this wonderful festive atmosphere there, like families and friends :)

After that we hopped down to chinatown to have dinner with one of my Dad's ex sec-sch classmate. Haha i enjoyed the food there. Ate a lot man, like a pig wolfing down everything in sight... wahh really bloated now. My sis ate a lot too but she threw it all up while eating the dessert...

So got home but wasn't really much countdown shows (and btw i seldom watch the local channels...) but saw the fireworks at Taipei 101 and it was real nice...

2007!!! xD