hmm i find it to be quite true-

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Labels: Lame Tests

Disclaimer: This will be a rather pensive entry, which may not make sense. So do not read if you do not like it.

School has been rather busy for me... but it has always been. But beyond that, school has been really stressful, in tangible and intangible ways....

Sometimes I really wonder if that's the real ME i see in school. More often than not, i realise it's just someone I convince myself to me... in short, I am a faker. Do i really mean alot of the stuff I do, the stuff i say, the stuff I show? Just like actors in a play, are they the same once the curtains have fallen?

There's so many things I like to do (for the benefit of readers, I shall not bore you with the long list)... but really, i have no time for them... ermm maybe it's just a lack of effort. Yet in most circumstances, I am overinfluenced by others, to be someone I am not, to like things i do not.

RJC is like a rat race. But I do not like the race - i want to learn at my own pace, do other stuff i enjoy - yet i do not want to do badly (which is what is happening to me right now) will I always be a follower, struggling to catchup with the leading pack? Yet even if i win the race, what does that make me? A rat - albeit a glorified one?

I have lofty ambitions, i admit. I want to make more money, so that I can give my parents the best I can give, and allow them to enjoy the finer sides of life. I want to make a difference in what I do, cos i believe that is ultimately the aim to everything - the light at the end of the tunnel.

But can i do it? Can i release that passion or potential in me to match those dreams? Can i let the real ME take over?

Wake up from your slumber, let out the real ME

Labels: Random Musings

I love recas, infact i still do...

but come to think of it, recas has quite screwed up my jc life... if not for recas

I will be taking part in ISLE! cool rite? Would like to build houses in cambodia or sth

I will be taking part in Raffles Public Policy Program! Another cool program, even though i have no wish to enter politics...

I will be more enthu in Electronics! At least I can attend all the General Relativity talks and other fun activities and not be labelled a slacker by them

I will be taking part in more Interhouse activities! Even though Zhiwen or other MT ppl have always been telling me to go, i just pon. Like IH Chess... i'm pretty sure that if i had gone at the start, my team will be ranked at least

I will be runnning for council! Well it has been something I had really wanted to do, but i guess recas chair kinda swayed me... Looking at the Council Investiture today, I felt genuinely happy for those on stage, i saw young leaders who can make a difference to the school. Yet i felt a slight tinge of disappointment... why did i make all those asssumptions?

In a perverse sense, i think i will enjoy recas even more now. At least I don't have to be afraid of screwing up infront of everyone... at leaset I can do something I enjoy without carrying a boulder of responsibility.

But at the end of the day, if only...

Labels: Random Musings

i love violin

but i have just been forced to throw my violin away

i am at this fork now

do i turn left? buy another violin, and salvage my remaining passion in it?

do i turn right? learn another new instrument, or invent a new one? even though i know i love violin...

well, the central question is, why force me to throw it away??

bleargh, sometimes people make the most un-informed decision. And make others suffer

Labels: Random Musings

人生乃一场残酷的舞台,
而我只是被摆布的木偶.
希望,
莫过于瞎子盲目的期盼.
微笑,
只代表哑巴难言的辛酸.

永远天真,永远无暇
也不必永远操心人生的无奈.
我只能继续扮演下一场戏,
让别人欢笑,
自己内心哭泣.

可怜的木偶啊...

i realised something quite interesting about myself... like I always have this song associated with a gal i once used to like...

i think it's because i always listen to a certain song during that certain period of infatuation, so there's close association...

anyway i am listening to welcome to the black parade now... oh well

Labels: Interesting

happie labor day!

like what dr chan said, this is the day men are closest to being women!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh